my luck is fucked lately. its like my life is a series of unfortunate events, its hard to look at the bright side of anything when shits just fucked.
i hate working so many night shifts, i love it, i love the people, and better money, but i cant get anything in my life straight or done.
my car is fucked, still. i have no money, still. school is school, its whatever, which i wish could be more. i wake up, i lie in bed because honestly that is all i wanna do lately, i finally get up and go through the one hour routine of getting ready for work, which consists of hair and nails and make it into work, i work for eight hours for money that cannot be spent and must be saved. i get off work and honestly all i want is to spend time with the one who makes me smile and forget the bullshit. but what you wanna do is hard to do when you have no transportation and have to rely on others to get where you want and what you want.
im tired. im tired of trying so hard for nothing. tired of trying to play of the feelings i have for someone just to not piss someone else off. tired of not being able to be friends and just friends with someone because they have limits.
life should not be about what we limit ourselves too, but it is entirely made up of boundaries and lines we cannot cross.
i dont know where im going with this. to be honest, its hard to focus or organize anything at the moment. what i need is to not be restricted anymore, to be around the one who makes me smile,a car, or maybe a million dollars.
loves.
xo
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